Captured Thought: Chicago Musical

My last three years of high school, I have never cared about the musical. I never tried out, or ever wanted to be in it. Im just not the best actress, but I love to sing and dance! But everything was diffrerent this year. When I figured out that the musical was Chicago, I was actually really excited! I mean it was the only musical that I have seen a bunch of times, and actually liked, but I just couldn't wait to try out because I really wanted to be Mama Morton. I knew I wouldnt get a lead role, and I didnt really want one so I would go for a shorter role, and I knew I could rock her song. So I just had to make it through Variety Show, and then I'd be ready for musical. But man, that did not go as I had planned. During and after v-show I was just utterly exhasusted and feeling busy and stressed all of the time with all the rehearsals and homework and all the other things I had to do, I had no time! If that was that bad, I didnt even want to imagine what musical would be like and I could not just jump into something else that time consuming right away. I just couldnt help but feeling lousy all the time and kind of angry that I can't even get as school-involved as I want to. I have to go back to work and find another job cause I took too much time off for school stuff and now I need money. I feel like Im just getting a taste of adulthood too soon, and I cant enjoy being a kid anymore. I really would have liked to be in that musical, but I guess its just bad timing.